Reflection

After a ton of thought on a long drive home and going through some old event notes on my phone and Facebook memories…

I genuinely miss having my own car. I love getting to drive so many cool amazing builds and I thank whole heartedly to everyone who has given me the opportunity to drive their amazing builds. It has taught me what I like in a car. I love the teammate aspect of codrive agreements for year long deals. I genuinely enjoy keeping things interesting and driving something new with a new set of challenges.

I’m not saying I’ll never codrive again because that would just simply not be true.

But when I think back to last years spring Nats it brought me so much freaking joy to be able to toss so many people the keys to my car when they needed something to drive.

I am genuinely considering dropping out of Cleveland and putting all of my energy toward the BMW. If I don’t have anything in particular to work on that weekend I may go to just photograph the event. Make this year a reset year.

I have decided to not even try for a third event for the finale this year. This will only be my second time not doing the finale since 2009. Tough decision but I think this is the move for me right now. I genuinely love that I’ve driven 53 Nationally prepared cars in this country in 16 years. Really freaking cool, but man do I want to bring my own pile of parts to an event again.

If the BMW isn’t done by Nationals I’ll still go, I’ll still find something to drive because I wouldn’t miss it. Just think my goals have shifted.

For many years I wanted a championship so badly it hurt. It crushed everything about me to come home from nationals without one. It got to the point where I wasn’t having fun anymore. So, I spent some time in CAM, a class that didn’t have a championship to win and shifted my goals, last years trophy debacle took the wind out of my sails. So obviously the concept of competition was still important to me. Over the past 5 years or so I’ve still wanted the awards but needed them less and less. With that my driving started to get better and better.

This weekend brought back some of the old feelings of frustration when I would find myself going home empty handed. I don’t like those feelings popping up- for clarity I mean I don’t like that I got discouraged by the lack of “award”. I liked how I felt last year much better- I was 6 seconds off in the pro with a car that could never win just giggling about bringing my own car to an event again. I need that in my life again.

Day one of the pro was frustrating. The courses favored light cars and I was in a pretty heavy mustang. I made a gamble and switched to a C6 Corvete. The index was harder but despite that I dropped a whole second.

Fastest Right
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The tour I got to drive a really fun V6 camaro swapped Miata!

Day one I drove really well, Day two not so much. Oops!